My best friend Sabine has been writing a lot about her personal feelings on confidence and such on her blog and it really got me thinking.. and it's nice to have someone so relatable (is that a word? says the English major) so close to me.
After four straight months of working seven days a week, wearing my uniform top and hair back in a braid every single day, and dealing with sassy pants customers on the regular has just left me feeling all around exhausted and my confidence level is at an all time low. I haven't felt like myself most of the summer because I really haven't had the chance to wear my hair down (which is the way I feel most comfortable and myself) or to get all dolled up and feel all cool and whatnot.
I live in a trailer for the summer (gypsy style baby), which is a very small space to be cramped up in for months. I like cozy places and all but after a while camping and showering in a public washroom where I need to wear sandals in to avoid germies gets a little bit old. I feel so cooped up and I'm at a point where I can't wait for summer to be over so I can get back to school in Ottawa and back to my apartment where I can have my OWN space again (and my own lovely shower.. sans sandals).
I'm hoping I'll start feeling more like myself again once I'm back in Ottawa. That being said (and adding to my first point about what my friend Sabine has been saying) - I've officially deemed this year my 'GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER' year. Starting in Autumn I'm going to really start doing just that. Sabine talks a lot about trying to feel sexy again - I've always felt kind of cute I guess but never really 'sexy' and this year that changes. I need to start seeing myself as a woman now and not just some cute girl. I need to work heaps on my self confidence, self health, and self identity. This year I'm going to put my heart and soul into ME. This will be the year I figure out who I am, start eating healthy and living a more active lifestyle, putting a little more effort into my style and appearance, putting a lot more effort into my studies and writing, and just become all around independent and satisfied with who I am.
This also includes making my apartment a 100% comfy, calming, and inspiring space for me to hibernate in this winter so that I don't get that awful dead of winter blues that hits me hard every year. And, something that might sound a
RANT: COMPLETE.
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